Hygge

By Rim

 The horizon is clear; you are gone, and I feel the loveliness in sadness.

I can survive without seeing you, but I can't make myself stop wanting you

You made me fall in love again by breaking me

And I don't think you'll understand me

How can you captivate me with all your imperfections

How can you be so unreasonable toward my awareness

You are giving the LOVE life and making it ephemeral

And I look at you from the corner of my eyes

Detecting you smiling was my favorite part

And I don't need a telescope to see the glare

One gaze on you can tear up my stamina 

So how dare you leave me that way

You are still someone I don't want to unlove

I wish I could keep you from going 

Sadly you are too lazy to stay 

I need to reinvigorate your emotions

I know you still look at me when I don't look at you 

The sweet smile, like the aftermath

we were walking side by side, almost touching

I can feel the gravity of your hand, calling my fingers

confiding "it's alright. "

you held my shoulder to protect me from the passing cars.

and for the first time in a long while, I felt so fragile.

In this world where I find it hard even to breathe,

you believed me.

You know it's hurt too much to let you go

But how long should I wait, darling?

Can't you see that  I hazardously love you!

THE LOVE now has another life. Life on an island, in the sun,

Where wine and music sharpen the senses.

Maybe I could have loved you there? Dancing,

The warm sun caressed your body like secret hands. Dreaming of kisses I could not have. 

YES I said I can survive without seeing you, but I can't stop myself from loving you 

I am shoddy... 



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