Never giggle in front of an over thinker

By Rim

 I'm already thinking about how to not poetically write a poem

I m already thinking of how to not drop a tear

And yet from a far distance

I look at you jumping in a deep talk with her

She was looking at me and laughs

And unluckily, I am an over-thinker 

I kept pretending that I don't care

That her giggles didn't get me

He was grinning and for while I was wondering

If our secret is no longer  undercover

I was blaming myself for trusting him

Recognizing it too late

Two people ended up as a strangers

But can we think of  it for a while

Even if you pretend not to know that person

Seeing his face wake up the hidden  cell of ur body

Every cell that watched your fingers writing every word you wrote on your keyboard

Speechless in fact 

Where are my secrets? Are they roaming know between teens? Does everyone knows about it yet? 

I am too dumb. I wish I listened to my best friend! Wish I was mature enough to learn from my mistakes

I regret it now

Here is a new regret on my regret file


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