Don't talk shit about a broken soul

By Rim

 Have you ever woken up in the middle of night, couldnt sleep because you are paralyzed  by your own throughts

No? 

Then before you lay down your harsh judgment then underdtand that"you'll never understand who I am" 

Have you ever cried on the barthroom floor, cursed blindly, begged god to end your life

No? 

Then before you talk shit behind my back, understand that i was lost in pain and had enough hateful throughts

Have you ever hated your self so much, that you took a blade to your skin because you had no choice

No? 

Then before you stab me with your words, understand that i may be already bleeding

Have you ever experienced the feeling of been rejected by your own friends? Bullied violantly by your classmate? Replaced by your only best friend? 

No? 

Then before you take a step out my life dont make me notice, i may be filled with anxiety already


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