I laughed just to avoid crying

 Laughing to avoid crying is a different kind of pain

And I laughed when your gaze scan to search for her not mine

I laughed when you spent the whole night talking to her, and even didn't answer my "hello"

I laughed the day you had a fight with her, she was so strong for daring to  bloke you, and I couldn't see you sad, so I happily talked to her about you, I laughed when she unblocked you and you didn't even say "thank u" for my trying

I laughed when you forgot my birthday 

I laughed when you tell her happy birthday with a picture of you both on your story

I laughed because I didn't even have a picture with you 

I laughed when you told me that you had a call with her, I laughed because I was dreaming of having a call with you

I laughed when you told me that she is your crush

I laughed at the way you come behind her and cover her eyes with your soft hands 

I laughed because I couldn't deny that I was jealous

It's was painful the time I spent crying on you 

I still remember 2 hours crying  in the class because I thought you hated me, and I laughed at the way the teacher was looking at me

I truly laughed when I was crying because I was writing something for you and the teacher asked me if I'm having a common cold she thought I was sick while I was crying

I cried every night secretly because I couldn't avoid the tears stucking in my eyes, I cried every night when you told me that you will no longer be around

I laughed when you left, and I had no one to look for

I laughed because I was lonely 

You left with all those memories that I'm laughing at just to avoid crying.