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  Warning!! This may be shocking for some readers.  I honestly don't know how to feel anymore, about anything, I don't know how to feel generally. Like how do I feel when I'm just so numb all the time, when I'm lying in bed and just staring at nothing for hours that feel like minutes, I don't know how to feel anymore, because before it was anger, and pain and suffering, and upset, and just so many emotions so much pain, but now there is just nothing, not having any emotions hurt more than anything could, that's why self-harm doesn't hurt anymore, that's why when I scratch my skin of my flesh, it's doesn't hurt anymore. I look at my scars right Now. And I just feel so conflicted, I feel hatred towards it, I see those marks on everybody that I love, I see those scars I cause to other people ON My Skin. And yet the people that I love are watching, and it's hurt them that hurt myself even if it didn't hurt... I don't know why I'm so o...

  For a better reading experience, I made a dictionary explaining hard words. Check at the end of the page. With a Quaver rhythm...   I pontificate my love in a rhetoric speech  I rue the fact that I blunt the last time we talked  I rue my unspoken feeling of been exigent I get qualms every time you ignore my presence Is cursing my name still make you satiated? You are no longer prudence You are no longer a nincompoop But your zeal is still getting higher when you touch my skin With a quaver rhythm... My tirade is no longer satisfying  My restive character is no longer fragrant  And between me and you, there is a hiatus barrier reek of flowers Kismet, searching for a panacea of our disease Dictionary: Quaver: A shake or tremble in a person's voice.  Blunt: saying what you think without trying to be polite.  Kismet: fate.  Panacea: A remedy for all disease or ills; cure-all. Hiatus: space where something is missing.  Zeal: great enthusias...

  Laughing to avoid crying is a different kind of pain And I laughed when your gaze scan to search for her not mine I laughed when you spent the whole night talking to her, and even didn't answer my "hello" I laughed the day you had a fight with her, she was so strong for daring to  bloke you, and I couldn't see you sad, so I happily talked to her about you, I laughed when she unblocked you and you didn't even say "thank u" for my trying I laughed when you forgot my birthday  I laughed when you tell her happy birthday with a picture of you both on your story I laughed because I didn't even have a picture with you  I laughed when you told me that you had a call with her, I laughed because I was dreaming of having a call with you I laughed when you told me that she is your crush I laughed at the way you come behind her and cover her eyes with your soft hands  I laughed because I couldn't deny that I was jealous It's was painful the time I spent...