Remember_me

 I remove myself from the deepest parts of my mind and become familiar with my normal surroundings I play on my favorite song I don't think of anything except the natural beauty of the sky The birds that are flying willingly  Indeed reality doesn't hurt but this perfect world I have created inside my mind makes me feel free from the polluted minds of people in this society it’s not loneliness it’s getting lost in my mind and getting tangled in the beautiful mess that makes up who I am my brain transforms into a galaxy of swirling blue and purple with the brightest moments shining like stars I'm so tired of people being ignored and killed and painted wrongfully. I'm tired of war and hate and hate and hate being released in all of the wrong ways I am tired of bullets and blood and self-induced pain if we can't handle love and hate with two hands and a heart open to understanding that these are both powerful emotions that can get out of control. Somethings are better l...

 I still reread our messages As if the spaces in between our sentences Would suddenly produce new words It was like waiting for flowers to bloom in an eternal winter I checked every period making sure that you were done saying what you wanted to say And maybe you'd want to turn your periods into semicolons – your sentences may have ended but your thoughts haven't I was trying to find something, anything In the string of words we told each other Staring at each "I love you" Trying to figure out if maybe I did something wrong I had no one to blame for your decision but myself I couldn't even blame you, I loved you too much In the sea of I love yous and sweet nothings I was hoping to find when it exactly stopped When you stopped feeling the same When our love became one-sided and you left me hanging When you let go and I was still holding on Why didn't I notice that you were gone If we wrote to each other in Chinese characters I wouldn't be surprised that I m...