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 I'm already thinking about how to not poetically write a poem I m already thinking of how to not drop a tear And yet from a far distance I look at you jumping in a deep talk with her She was looking at me and laughs And unluckily, I am an over-thinker  I kept pretending that I don't care That her giggles didn't get me He was grinning and for while I was wondering If our secret is no longer  undercover I was blaming myself for trusting him Recognizing it too late Two people ended up as a strangers But can we think of  it for a while Even if you pretend not to know that person Seeing his face wake up the hidden  cell of ur body Every cell that watched your fingers writing every word you wrote on your keyboard Speechless in fact  Where are my secrets? Are they roaming know between teens? Does everyone knows about it yet?  I am too dumb. I wish I listened to my best friend! Wish I was mature enough to learn from my mistakes I regret it now Here is a new r...

 I am devoted to people's eyes The most attractive part of the human body You may think it's not something worth looking at But have you ever noticed the story animated behind every pupil  Gazing is  a flirty way to kiss the soul Indeed, human's eyes scare me I cannot look at them for too long But oh gosh That boii behind me I haven't seen such cristal black eyes So brilliant and blazing Speaking too much pain  And I can't explain the art of mixing such sad eyes with such a sweet smile Facing the agony of life And I can hear his quaver voice while talking to his friend That boii behind me I wish I could turn around and travel into his iris I want to be near, enough to see the ghosting tears stucking there Dear boy, I look at too much I wish I could visit your world just one time You are so clueless, but trust me I can see every single reason through your eyes Dear boy I look at too much please don't blame me, it's your eyes that attract me spiritually I wrot...

 Lately i dont write Not because i dont want to, its just because my mind is overfilled with emptiness. I used to write to express myself, to cure my soul. But lately i dont write. Writing is the matter giving your self a chance to get out of that box that you have been in for a period of time. Writing is not putting such a specific words to pruduce something cohérent, but it the matter of transforming such a complicated, a unexplained feeling to words. So lately, i cant write, it because i no longer can verbalize my feelings. I cant feel the love, i no longer think of any human being en during my break. I just sit there and stars at my ceiling, for hours that feels like minutes, i just sometimes get teary eyed cause i used to be over dozed by love. And i will tell you my definition of love lately. Lately love is a fantastic world, you only feel it when you kiss yourself through the mirror, love is no longer an attraction between two souls, love is there but he cant win the hate ro...

 Between life and death, there is a hiatus, an uncompleted breath it's like when you're sleeping but not dreaming but you're conscious of the nothingness that has become for just a second, everything For a while, wind wants to be visible The bird wants to walk and the human wants to fly It's like seeking something we could not have We are paralyzed by our thoughts  I'm eating hallucinations. I'm feeling colors Anger. Anxiety. Depression. Fear. Imagine these feelings Are a natural disaster. I am so fragile, and these feelings never left me without harm So death is my refuge I run Till the moment I put the knife on my neck  Then I remember that I am a human feeling melancholy  is a part of my existence  And dying is ways failing the game of life Life  is just a result of two random possibilities take it, leave it, grow out of it  It's okay to not be okey~~